If Only I Knew!!

I’m so glad to be back in this blogging world.  I do miss it a lot and always trying my best to bake or cook whenever I can.  For those of you that had been wondering where or what I had been doing? I’m actually just got a newborn and she’s finally 4 months old now. Yay for myself!!! Much more easier that the past few months. Having a baby does change your priority. A better one! It’s not easy but I know it will worth it. Everyday seeing her grow right in front of my eyes is really amazing. The milestones that she reached every months! Omg!! I can don’t mind doing this again but this time, I will hired a nanny for sure.

I did not get any help from anyone, not families or friends.  Because of this, I gets to see who are my true friends are. The one that you thought will come and help you out actually turned one to be the one that really disappointed you. And the one that you don’t talk to them everyday turned out to be the one that supported you all the way up to this days. I do feel mad at myself in time on how can I be so blind? A friend that had been using me all this time. No messages or asking if I’m doing fine? It’s really shitty. Not even a visit? Before I’m even pregnant, I’ll ask and invited them for everything.

I guess, having a baby is like a handicap for some people. Oh… she can’t party like before, she can’t hang out like before, she sleeps early, she’s boring and etc. But do they ever ask if I need help? Or even bring me out for a nice dinner to have a break? Or maybe a quick coffee or tea, to catch up about life? I put me a thought, how this people can be so selfish in time. When they needed friends or need help, I was there once to lead a hand. I’m really wonder if I’m living in the world of “I”? It’s really sad when all I was hoping was a friend who I can put my head on the shoulder and let me know everything will be all right.

For the past few months, I learned what I needed to learn. Someone said to me that I’m too nice that people taking advantage for me. Not allowing them to take advantage of me but I was just being nice as I know the world is so complicated.

What doesn’t kill me makes me strong!!

But I am blessed that God showed me that, there someone out there do care about me.

I don’t remember when was the last time I’m actually venting my heart out on a blog? But it does make me feel human again. If you still reading, Thank you! I bet there no one actually reading this. It had been awhile.

Recipes will be coming shortly. After I’m sorting out the photos.